I am a soul of the cosmos,
A traveler of the stars.
And I cannot remember my way home.
Lost and afraid, tormented I fear
Forever I would roam.
I am made of dust and oceans
I see with eyes shut tight.
I know that this is where lost souls go
When they’re searching for the light.
Why did I head out so far? What answer did I seek?
I feel that somethings missing, my flaming heart grew weak.
These strange lands won’t let me go
I’ve forgotten how to fly
How is there still sea in me? After all these tears I’ve cried.
Am I a daughter to the wind
Or a sister to the trees?
I question why the moon so fiercely calls to me.
The universe missed my flaming heart,
They missed my shining songs,
And so they sent what I had from the start,
It was my love all along.
And here I lie by his side,
As I will till the end of days
Until we embark on our next cosmic ride.
It’s a shame that we live in a society where humans dream and strive for a life without struggle, yet they can’t seem to grasp the concept of love without boundaries. This is a society where your worth is measured by what you can purchase, rather than how you can make others feel. Humans, we have an unbeatable force within us. Humans, legends once said that gods feared us. We had women that could sway the hearts of Olympians. We had men who would cross swords for honor and love. Do not lose our only chance of surviving, our concept of emotions and how they can effect not only one another but this earth that we’ve so carelessly forsaken.
For a majority of my life, I’ve felt out of place. After high school, I chose to attend college out of state, with a new state of mind. But towards the end of my second semester, I found myself bawling my eyes out with self-loathing, until a good friend gave me some tough love.
Afterwards, I returned to the town I disliked, but came across some beautiful people who opened my eyes towards a brighter horizon. I wanted to see more of this world, but fear always held me back. I knew I had the ability to do anything I wished. But to do it alone seemed an unbearable journey. And so I stayed behind, in hopes that someone would come back for me.
The last couple of years were rough for me. I couldn’t properly communicate and connect with my family. I still continued to feel out of place. I was constantly running and chasing after things that kept disappearing, like mirages in the desert. Soon, I lost my ability to truly call anywhere home.
The summer came, where I had thought I fell in love, and when I lost that love, I honestly believed that I lost my one chance. It was a devastating revelation. It felt as though someone physically tore my heart out, I understood the cliche then more than ever. And so, I decided to love myself more than anyone else could love me, and to do that, I had to become someone I could love. So I focused on my music. I focused on what I found to be beautiful. I blossomed, I bloomed. But still, there were nights that I felt crazed, for something was still missing, and the ache was close to unbearable.
And then I met you. At first you was just an idea. Someone I could imagine myself with, but how real would it be? Would you honestly love me? Would I be backtracking, once again looking for dependency? So I walked on my toes, afraid to step on broken glass. Yet, cautious as I was, I still found myself falling, at a more rapid pace then ever before. But you caught me, not from underneath, but from above. You took my hands and shared your wings with me, and I soared into an endless abyss of love with you. Now I know that you was written into my story from the beginning. I feel out of breath, cause I never stopped running until now. I was running towards you, all along. You’re not just my lover, more than my closest friend. You’re my future. You’re magic. You are what I was always ashamed to believe in. The romantic words whispered underneath satin sheets. You are the touch that burns my frostbitten heart.
I don’t feel out of place when you’re with me. You are my tribe. And you will beat on drums and I will sing songs while we dance in the gods woods. I will let the rain glide off my skin and hold you close. I will love you, untamed, for as long as I breathe. That is my promise, not just to you. But to me. You are who I’ve always needed.
Loving you is poetry,
Sometimes it’s genius,
Like the discovery of our hearts core
And the newfound way our legs intertwine and stretch like roots and vines,
Reasons why the world is kind,
Making you mine
But there are times we’re so cliche
I keep finding myself searching for words that rhyme with
Stay with me